Thoughts found

I just found a sheet of thoughts I typed this spring while struggling with my former church's concepts about righteousness and coming before God. They were reminders to myself. I have edited out my typos and clarified a bit, but this is mostly it:

It is just as dangerous to rely on the Word at the expense of the Spirit as it is to rely on the Spirit at the expense of the Word.

God has sent the Holy Spirit for a reason, may I not ignore it. He has given the Word for a reason, may I not ignore it. Just as the Father son and Holy Spirit are one, so the written, spoken and sensed word complement one another. None is complete without the other.

Striving to be “righteous” will produce no spiritual result. We must let God transform us and accept what has already been done for us. I cannot change myself. Only God can. I cannot make myself righteous. Short of accepting the gift of righteousness that comes through Jesus alone, nothing I do will make me anymore righteous. I can give to the poor and give my body to burned (thinking about the love verses in Corinthians). It is blasphemous to believe anything other than that it is God who makes me righteous. I live “righteously”, not because I must do to be a Christian, but rather because I desire to. Because I am transformed. Because I want to live with and for God.

God loves me.

"The Curse" AND the Bambino (for all my girls)

This morning I was driving to work listening to the news. The Red Sox won the World Series. I nearly cried.

I don't even like baseball.

Patience

     I think God is trying to tell me something. It goes something like this......RELAX!!!
     God has been speaking to me through friends. I was standing in line at IKEA this weekend laughing because I had, of course, picked the "slow line". My friend told me that she was trying to model herself after someone she knew who had decided not to care. You'll get there when you get there. Who cares? Good idea.
     Then I was talking with another friend about hating my job because it is not ultimately what I want to do. I like what he said. You have eternity, why be impatient? Good point.
     I have come to this conclusion: Impatience is not logical for Christians.What a great lesson! I really do need to learn patience.

     I just wish it didn't take so long.

The Death of a Toe *VIEW AT YOUR OWN RISK - not for the squeamish!*

OK - I won't subject you to my disgusting toe on here. Just click on the title if you are feeling particularly morbid.

Ah, what a day!

As you can see - I am having toe trouble. I won't go into too much detail. Needless to say - I finally went to the doctor. The doctor was a liar. Told me it wouldn't hurt. I ended up pulling off my sock and shoe (while driving) and jamming some papertowel between my toes that had previously been wrapped around the remnants of a week-old bagel. I was praying for all green lights so I wouldn't have to shift in my barefooted-paper-towel-led state. Instead, I got even the weird lights going red on me!

My toe looks like a giant blood blister right now. She told me it might go black a bit - but I'm not sure if this is healthy!

On a completely different note - I ran into someone I know on my way to the clinic. One of those people that intimidates me. I can't figure out what he's thinking and I can't read him - it drives me crazy. I was really tired because I just got off work and had only slept for 4 hours the night before. And my face goes pink when I don't get enough sleep. So of course I run into this person and become acutely aware of the fact that my face is hot and pink. Then I think that he thinks I am turning red because I am talking to him and promptly turn red. How's that for self-defeating? I get embarrassed because I think someone thinks I am. A vicious cycle. The moral of this story - get more sleep!